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Chronic Illness

Today I’m writing a blog about something that is a not-so-glamorous part of my life, I’m writing this blog because I’m scared, and I’m writing this blog because I’m not the only one who’s gone through something like this, I think sharing my story will help me and maybe even help someone else. On Monday afternoon I’m going to hospital to have a medical procedure, and it scares me.

Until now this is something I’ve kept to myself, only sharing when I really have to, when it effects my work, or when something happens that I can’t control. I don’t know why I haven’t had the courage to share this before, I guess its something that’s embarrassed me, a flaw I thought people would think less of me for, but being sick isn’t weakness, its not something that can be helped, its not something any amount of positive thinking an overcome, but its something we must face head on.

For the past ten years I’ve had an unknown chronic illness, which can strike me at any time, sometimes I become so nauseas I pass out, other times I become so violently ill I’m left bed ridden for days. To the best of my abilities I’ve not let it interfere with achieving my goals, but its not something I can control which can be really frustrating. I’ve had countless tests run, and my doctor had told me it was time for a more invasive course of action to try and pinpoint the issue.

I’m going to hospital to have a gastroscopy, and colonoscopy, which is where they take a 9mm tube with a camera at the end to investigate what’s going on internally. There are very minimal risks that can result with this, and while I do worry for this, my biggest concern is finding what’s actually wrong, they may find something treatable, they may find something bad, and they might find nothing at all. I know I shouldn’t worry as its something that’s out of my hands, but I’m nervous no matter what the outcome.

Chronic illness exists in many forms for many people, what it causes can effect people in different ways, I don’t think you can compare pain or suffering, its something that effects you, no one can tell you how it makes you feel. No matter what you’re going through, whether its physical or mental you’re not alone, and you shouldn’t feel like you have to hide what you’re going through. There are many support groups that exist, and many people open about their problems and are willing to talk with you.

For the next couple days I won’t be online as much, but I will return to blogging and replying emails as soon as I can.

Much love,

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11 comments on “Chronic Illness

  1. Kelly Gardner
    March 29, 2015

    Hello Lady Lace 🙂
    I know you don’t know me but I follow your blogs and always enjoy seeing your lovely and wonderful contributions to vintage fashion and living! 🙂
    I just wanted to wish you best of luck for your hospital visit and assure you that the procedure you are having is quite routine, and actually knowing and identifying what is going on will be the most important solution to your recovery, both physically and mentally. Stress and worry actually impede your recovery and well being, so even though it’s hard to stop those worry thoughts, remember that no matter what the outcome (and chances are it will be fine) you will be able to handle it and you have people who care about you, so all you need to do is relax.
    Take care and we will see you again online soon 🙂
    kindest regards
    Kelly Gardner

    • Miss Lady Lace
      March 31, 2015

      Hello Kelly! A stranger is just a friend we don’t know yet. 🙂 Thank you so much for your kind words I definitely agree, the lead up to the procedure was quite scary, but I felt so much better afterwards, and am now just awaiting biopsy results, I’ll be sure to keep everyone updated. If we’re not already friends online please do feel free to add me (https://www.facebook.com/missladylace.pinup). 🙂

  2. SwittersB
    March 29, 2015

    Best wishes for you! Thank you for sharing.

  3. Tanya
    March 29, 2015

    Thank you for sharing and I wish you all the best. As you say the gastroscopy and colonoscopy are investigative procedures. Often the fear of the unknown is far worse than the other option. If they find a reason for your illness then at least it can be treated and you know what you are dealing with. Not knowing sometimes is a safer option or avoidance mechanism in order for you to cope with what your mind conjures up what may be wrong. Not knowing and not been treated denies you the opportunity of a happy and fulfilled life. Continuing the way you are is not fair to yourself and body. So go forth, trust your doctor’s and specialist and get second opinions if required as it is your right and your body. Try to be positive and think that that this could be the beginning of feeling better so you can lead the life you want. Love and hugs.Tanya xxxx

    • Miss Lady Lace
      March 31, 2015

      Thank you so much for your kind supportive words.I definitely agree, the lead up was fear of the unknown, I also haven’t had any medical procedures done in many years, so it was was a little scary in that sense too. If anything is found from the biopsies its much better to get a result now and begin treatment, then waiting years for it to get worse and possibly finding its too late. 🙂

  4. mickelle
    March 29, 2015

    I applaud you for having the courage to post this! You’re absolutely right sickness is not weakness. And, yep, you’re not alone at all. I hope you get answers.

    • Miss Lady Lace
      March 31, 2015

      Thank you Mickelle! The procedure went well I’m just awaiting biopsy results. 🙂

  5. Miss Dale Velvet-Rose
    March 30, 2015

    Look after yourself beautiful lady xxx

  6. Tahls
    March 30, 2015

    Thank you for a wonderful post.
    It takes courage to write such posts and i’m sure it will help someone else out there who is going through the same.

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